Scared of Happiness 

Sometimes you really know you are not happy with something,you know exactly what you have to do but still you ignore the situation and pretend it doesn’t bother you.We put others before ourselves that we fail to distinguish between a good gesture and a bad sacrifice.You can sacrifice certain things for certain people but you need to learn to fight for your happiness.Majority of us live in a world of freedom of speech and yet we allow ourselves to be pushed around and back and forth as though we cannot speak. 

If you know you can do something about a certain situation,if you know you are able to get to your happy place,if you know nothing in the world will mean anything until you are that kind of happy,then do yourself a favor and be happy…

You should not be scared of happiness,find it and enjoy it. 

You think it won’t last? well you just have to trust and live for that moment..it’s better to be happy for a few seconds than be miserable all your life and have no happy memories to look back to.



Make a choice..Choose to be happy 😊 

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If  it’s not love,what is it?

I have never really shared any of my personal stories on my blog before but I am thinking it’s high time I let you in a little on one of the most beautiful aspects of my life…

Tell me I am wrong and crazy for writing this,tell me I have no idea what the future holds and that this is trash talk…I hear you,but when you have lived like me you would agree with me. I knew love existed, I did.I just didn’t know it would happen to me…okay maybe I did but I always thought of it in the Disney fairytale kind of way,because according to me then,love in the real world was a total lie.No one could love someone that bad,I told myself.But all that came to pass the moment I fell in love myself.

I knew him from the past but the truth is I had no idea he was going to be the one I write about on my blogs.We crossed paths before but it was from a far distance.I knew of his existence I just didn’t know he existed for me😌..Yes for me. You grow up hating almost every part of your existence,you like like the people that didn’t like like you back and you get convinced you are the problem.You get so convinced that you decide to put up a wall for anyone trying to reach out.You block them all out until that one faithful day,that one precious person that existed but didn’t really exist texts you and says “Hi” it’s me,Fux…(I just read that in his voice 🙈). So you look at your phone for like 10 minutes trying to decide if you are happy,sad,shocked or frightened because the name you are reading never ever existed in your contacts and never in your life have you thought it would.

So you reply and act like you don’t care and say,”ow,hi” You press the sent button and then you are hooked😌😌😌..yes you are hooked.

That’s how it all started ,I love to call it my journey to happiness because that’s what I got…from the same day that I pressed that sent button (like literally press because the word touchscreen didn’t exist in my vocabulary then😝) to this very day,I have experienced nothing but happiness…Don’t get me wrong,happiness is not defined by living a perfect life with no problems at all,happiness is finding the best in everything you do and everyone around you. I still remember the day I said I do…No am not married..,but yes I said I do.I remember the exact day and the exact time.I remember the day I first saw him as my other half.I won’t lie I was nervous.He wore a black t-shirt,black shorts and flip flops ( No he didn’t have em sneakers and chains on to impress me,he was confident enough to Just be himself,If I remember well I think he just woke up because his hair was a mess😂)

  

As he walked towards me I felt my heart skip more than just a beat ,I don’t know if it was because I was nervous or maybe I just really had a terrible heart condition but whatever it was, it made my heart skip upon his arrival…I watched as my Prince Charming made his way towards me.I smiled and he smiled…it was beautiful. Not only because he had a gold tooth in his mouth that sort of sparkled as he smiled but everything was beautiful and it was happening all so fast.Days went by,months went by even years went by and I am still holding on to him.Not because he is the only guy in the world but because he is the only one that has shown me this much love in my life.Have you ever been so loved that even you are jealous of you☺️☺️☺️,No ? Well then you haven’t been loved😝(your turn is still coming)

At this point I have ran out of words to say,not because I have nothing to say but because I don’t know how to put them in writing…maybe I can use emojis 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️❤️️💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘

Tell me that doesn’t look like ❤️ . At times I ask myself if I really do deserve all this love and happiness,then I tell myself yes I do, we all deserve to be loved and love this deep. They say love is a 4 letter word,I say they lied,love is a 6 letter word and it’s spelled JULIUS…No am not a fool for writing this am just appreciating what the Lord gave me😌.I remember this one very specific moment,I called it the “cold romance” and this is what I wrote in my diary that day

 ” 12th April 2014″

Everyone else would call it a perfect date if they went out to the park or went out for an expensive dinner…my explanation of a perfect date is anytime spent with him,like on a cold Saturday morning,with the cold wind blowing past us as we talk and laugh,remembering the good old days.And then at some point we are all silent.Both thinking,I didn’t know what he was thinking about but I know I was thinking of how lucky I was to be part of his life.If we were ware wolfs he would be the alpha and I will be the omega…A pack! We both allowed the cold to penetrate into our bones just so we can be together a little while longer,because we knew once we’ve said goodbye,the next time we say hi will be after a long while.I was freezing to death but I looked at him and told myself…It is worth it



Most say true love doesn’t exist but I know majority will disagree.To hell with what they say,what I feel is real.He is not perfect but he is the best I have ever had,He is one of the reasons I am grateful for my existence today. 

Our story might not be the most heard like Romeo and Juliet or Barney and Clive,but it is the best we’ve written love.

I love you

With love

Me

“If it’s not love, give me a word to explain how a number that didn’t exist in your contacts becomes the most frequently contacted”🙈😋🙈

PS:If you just read this you are probably thinking of your own love life at this point…You may have found that one person and that’s great,fight for your love.If you didn’t find him or her yet,it’s not the end of the world,maybe you just need to find yourself first and the right one will come to you… who knows,you might just be the one for you😍.


Unlock 

We all have a story to tell…or at least that’s what I choose to think 
We’ve all experienced life in a million different ways ,

We’ve all gone through some ups and downs,

From the harsh reality, to the soothing sounds of happiness 

From life being a pain in the chest to life being a walk in the park

We’ve all lived and learned one way or another 

Some have had it worse than others ,the lucky ones had it handed to them on a silver platter 

But despite the many experiences…
We all have a story to tell

So how about you go ahead and tell your story.

How you tell it is totally up to you,just do your part and tell your story.I believe we can all learn from one another. Maybe  you don’t have a lot to say but trust me the little you have can be the missing information needed to save a life.
“Your story could be the key to unlocking someone else’s prison,so don’t be afraid to share it”(anonymous)

Is it worth the fight?

I have tried searching for ways to give my fight a reason,tried looking for reasons to say it’s worth the effort.I have tried asking myself  why I should keep fighting even when I know I am failing miserably. It was then that I realized that maybe somethings are just not worth all the blood,sweat and tears.Yes there are things we have to fight for but there are some that are just…putting weight on our shoulders for nothing really.

You invest your time into trying to understand or adjust but you reach a point where you know no amount of effort can change the situation. Yes maybe it will be okay temporarily but somehow you will know deep down that some day it will eventually come back to you asking the same questions over again…

Is it worth it?
Do I hang on and hope for the best or do I let go?

My thoughts: 

Yes we need to learn to not give up and fight our fights ,but sometimes we have to learn to let go of certain things.No you are not giving up,you gave it your all and you have reached the end of your fight.

I am not saying you shouldn’t fight for whatever it is that you want,I am simply saying ask yourself if it’s worth fighting for, instead of fighting a losing battle.
#justsaying 

It’s “NOT” a better place without you

You tell yourself they’re better off without you,

That the world is a better place without you in it

You have reached your Lowest point so bad that nothing else seem to Matter,not the friends you made,not the bonds you created, and at times not even the child you gave life to.

But here is the thing,the world won’t be a better place without you in it.Despite the number of enemies you’ve made,there is always those whose hearts you’ve touched and those whose days you’ve brightened up. It’s not a better world without you,it’s a complete world with you in it…you have a purpose,find it and make it happen.

Don’t let your current situation sum up your whole entire life,it won’t last forever (unless you want it to),it’s just a phase and you have your whole life ahead of you.The world needs you in it. You make it a better place for some of us☺️


#justsaying

*This is to everyone out there who feels like they have nothing to offer this world*